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Everything was once bleak , barren and desolate ,

but things started to come to life after you came into the picture...

It´s amazing how you made this lady stop in her tracks and turned

everything blissful, like an angel poking her in the eye

with a beautifully binding light and taking her afloat to paradise...

It may be an exaggeration, but the feelings are so intoxicating

and exhilirating that they can be compared to the`` State of Nirvana´´....

Words are running out to further describe how she feels , quite for ``undefined feeling´´

Close yet so far, you make her wish that things would manifest into reality,

and more often than not, she always finds herself in a wishful thinking mode ...

Just the prospect of you being close to her sends shivers down her spine and

leaves her breathless......

Enjoying every minute of the heavenly ``scenarios´´ inside her head ....

Basking in warm, happy thoughts of you

What a great diversion she gets herself into!...

An escape from reality??. Well, it is not!!........It only means how much she thrives on``hope´´just to keep her going.......

Like a book whose last remaining chapters

are about to unfold , her life is filled with excitement ....The ending may be either a happy or a tragic one, but nothing would keep her from hoping fervently ...Anyhow, she may not know much but there is only one thing she is certain about :

If things she hopes for would come to reality , everything would be perfect to the core!!!1

Reality bites

Reality bites ....I am like a flightless bird with broken wings
wishing to fly beyond the horizon with you, but to no avail...
As Cliche as it may sound, I am an open wound you left behind,
taking ages to heal...
exposed to more complications´,it seems incurable...
even the most potent cure won´t do,..
the demise of once beautiful memory seems irreversible ..
it takes only a miracle to bring it to life again..
Call it   insanity , but I  remain your inseperable shadow
trailing behind every inch of you...
like a gust of wind , whispering into your soul,
and trying to reawake your senses,
hoping those ``sparks ´´ would return ...
in my loneliness,, I unlock the memory box bearing all
the sweet nothings of the past .. Gazing inside fills my silence with tears..
Just Can´t  seem to find a way to lock its thousand locks and cast it into the fire of oblivion...
As Melancholy ensues ...dry brittle leaves , fall to the ground
carried by the swift currents into different directions,
storm clouds loom
and darkness creeping in---
-Such is also my fate...riding on the winds of time and braving through  this darkness

Futile Hope

The image of you lusters so strong that it hurts my eyes..Even in your absence, your overwhelming presence is still felt .. As omnipresent as you are, you surround me with warmth and comfort..

Every word you utter is resonating in my soul ....like every drop of healing water, it has a therapeutic effect on me..

Your wisdom is so great that it rubs off easily. What a great weapon to overpower me!!..My Hands up to you!!!

I am fully aware that I do not measure up to your standards and expectations ; nonetheless, I fervently hope that in one way or another you are STILL able to see my worth...

the GAP between us is unbelievably wide that it seems impossible to bridge it...Day in and day out, I´ve been wrestling with my inner voice that keeps telling me `´IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE´´

As it is now, everything is in the furnace of doubt.. Neither of us dares to save it.. Once the fuel is added to the fire , it will continue to burn up in a blazing fireball of uncertainty...

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A typical capricornian, I tend to conjure up my own dreams and create an exciting world of my own to evade temporarily life’s miseries and woes . Oftentimes do I find comfort in daydreaming.They say that the higher you aim, the harder you fall.But this cliche wont stop me from dreaming big.Nothing is impossible as long as you believe in yourself. FAITH can move mountains.

Life is a struggle.Without problems and trials, life would be like a smoothly- paved straight road leading to nothing.The road where I am now may be rough and crooked but I know I am getting to my destination…………….SUCCESS.

I believe that for every failure I experience , there is an equivalent success and luck in store for me. I guess it is just a matter of time before I finally get what my heart really desires

Masquerade

We all live in a fake world...
Almost everything is just an illusion, non-existent and unreal..
It´s nothing but a mirage....a place of make-believe where
the majority  we rub elbows with is wearing a mask
How impossible it is to unmask this iron-cast mask of pretenses!!
--so difficult that hyperbolly speaking we would need an x ray device
to see beyond and fathom who they really are behind that mask...
Everything is not always what they seem....
and much to our chagrin, it is not a case of ``what you see is what you get´´
Not everyone who smiles at us likes us
Not everyone who pays us a compliment admires us
Not everyone who pats us on the back wants nothing in return and
Just because they offer a helping hand doesn´t mean they are really sincere...
Sad but true, it is merely a world of barter, where almost everyone is regarded  as  a commodity
a place  where one´s vested interests prevail.......we are worthy, if we have soemthing to offer
and if we don´t, we are nothing but a piece of crap in their eyes...
In short, no one really gives a damn about our real   worth as a person ... we are simply regarded as their ``needs´´ like every commodity in a capitalist market..and that´s a crying shame!!
Let´s not be foolish to believe that everything is real..
It would be gullible of us if we do...
In this masquerade world of pretenses, the least thing we could do is to go with the flow and
play our cards well....I may sound pessimistic, but It would be a futile hope to believe that one day it will change..a masquerade world will remain a masquerade world.... and as the cliche goes `` if you can´t beat ém , join ém´....